“Not because I was noble,” he said. “Don’t make me better than I was. I got bitter for a while. Angry. Drank too much for a few years. Then my sister Ruth grabbed me by the collar one Thanksgiving and told me grief was not a profession.”
I laughed so hard my stitches protested.
“I like Ruth.”
“You will. She already likes you.”
“She doesn’t know me.”
“She knows enough.”
On the fourth day, Gerald brought a small wooden box.
“I wasn’t sure whether to show you this,” he said.
Inside were things he had saved for a child he thought was gone.
A tiny pair of knitted green booties.
A hospital bracelet from Eleanor’s first prenatal appointment.
A receipt for a music box.
A folded list of baby names.
Holly was circled.
I touched the paper with one finger.
Below it were other names. Sarah. June. Lydia. Emily.
But Holly was circled three times.
“You chose me,” I whispered.
Gerald’s eyes filled.
“Before I knew your face.”
I turned away, but he had already seen me cry so many times that pride felt pointless.
My phone buzzed constantly during that first week.
Mother.
Father.
Claire.
Unknown relatives.
Family friends.
Messages arrived dressed as concern and armed like knives.
Your mother is devastated.
You need to think about Claire’s stress.
This is not the time for drama.
Whatever happened, Eleanor raised you
